Serendipity strikes again!

Serendipity. That’s what my BFF said this last week was all about. And she couldn’t have been more accurate. Last Monday we were dealt the nasty blow of a negative pregnancy test and a second failed IVF. Come Thursday morning at 3:55 AM things were drastically different and much, much happier.

My dog birthed her first pup in our (my and my husband’s) bed. She didn’t use the adorable and well fashioned labor and delivery room we’d set up in our spare room. She didn’t use her whelping box. She didn’t use her favorite patch of grass outside (thank goodness!). She used our bed with our fluffy down comforter and block printed tapestry. She did seem a bit more cuddly than usual, but in the wee hours of the morning I just wanted her to go to sleep so I could go to sleep. And that’s when it happened.

“Turn on the light,” my husband said.


“I think there’s a puppy in the bed!” And there was. Little Coco (temporary name) was there squirming and moving in his new location. With some quick thinking, my husband picked up our dog as I picked up the puppy, and we four headed to the room designated for this kind of fun. From there, our dog delivered six more puppies (we weren’t expecting the last one), and my husband and I were there to welcome each one into the world.

It was amazing. I didn’t cry. But I was in awe of my dog and the cutest puppies I’ve ever seen. There they were, in one second, alive and new and squirmy. They moaned and squeaked and huddled together, and my husband and I are totally smitten. Of course, we keep telling ourselves not to get attached as only one will be staying with us for the long term, but it’s pretty hard. They’re so damn cute!

After spending the first night in the room with mama dog and pups I even uttered something all infertiles will cringe at: “Maybe I’m not cut out for this parent thing. I need more sleep than that!” But we’ve gotten more sleep, the pups have grown stronger, and I am even more grateful for this magical event and its timing. Seriously. No better way to heal your own wounds than to share in the excitement of the birth of something. Anything. So while my husband and I have had random conversations about next steps and the wacky things our doctor is likely to tell us and the unlikelihood of us going through IVF again, we have talked more about the puppies, what a great mom our dog is, how excited we are to get to experience this, and how grateful we are for this distraction. But then I think it isn’t a distraction at all. Rather, it’s just helping us keep things in perspective. Showing us the good in our lives. The love we share. In the grand scheme of things, life are pretty fucking awesome.

Like any good friend, I will share some gratuitous pictures of the puppies. Beware: they are cute. Really cute. Incredibly cute. Well, sort of. They really look like little guinea pigs right now. In a few weeks they’ll look more puppy-ish. Yah!

Some cuddle bugs in the corner.

Relaxing after a little snack.


Siblings gotta snuggle.


When you’re tired of breastfeeding, just roll on your back and hope no one can hold on. Notice the tiny one that survived the roll?

We do have an appointment with our RE some time this week or next. A little cycle redux. Raise your hand if you’re excited for that?! We’re looking forward to closing this chapter of our story and seeing where the next one begins. There is some healing that needs to happen. Some deeper conversations on being parents. Some questions we have about how we move forward. Will keep you all posted, of course!

A continued thanks for all of the love and support and laughter and check-ins. I continue to be bolstered by this on-line community.

dfb and the puppies


17 thoughts on “Serendipity strikes again!

  1. Aw, how special. They are adorable, so much love there 🙂 can I ask what breed they are? Have fun and enjoy the cuddles!

    • These are wheaten terriers. Super cute, if you ask me. The pups will lighten up to the color of the mama dog, but for now they are dark brown and black. I would send one your way if you didn’t live so far from here. =-)

  2. So Cute!! What an amazing experience! I’m so glad you have a reminder of how beautiful this life is, even with all the crap. Take your time to heal and process all that is in front of you. I can’t wait to see where the next chapter brings you.

  3. Awwww! Puppies! They are so darn cute. And what a special experience to witness their births. I love that you’re enjoying this time and gaining a new perspective from it. Whatever you decide to do next, I know it will be wonderful.

  4. SO Amazing!!! And SO great to hear from you! Congratulations Grandfurmom 🙂 What a great experience! I don’t know if I would have been able to handle it! Enjoy your new little puppies…how long will you keep them before finding homes?

  5. Oh my goodness! How exciting with these puppies!?!? They are too cute! And… The puppy breath! I could die! Best wishes for your path forward. 🙂

  6. So incredibly cute! I think I would like to take home each and every one of them! What an awesome dose of perspective too! Life really is pretty awesome in the grand scheme of things…it is so easy to lose that perspective in the midst of going through infertility! Thank you for sharing!

  7. Beautiful post, BFF! This line gave me the nose tingles/goosebumps: “No better way to heal your own wounds than to share in the excitement of the birth of something. Anything.” Squeeze one of the little pups for me!

  8. Adorable 🙂 Must be magical to have them in your house… hopefully a good omen of things to come 🙂 Thinking of you for your appt and starting your next cycle xoxo

  9. How wonderful, and how amazing that your dog trusts you so much to give birth in your bed, next to you. Congratulations, puppy-grandma 🙂
    (And I have been meaning to let you know that I saw Marigold Hotel with my mom a couple of weeks ago. It was perfect for us together.)

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